Lyrics
Intro (instrumental)
Perfect Tragedy
These Days
Graveyard Hill
World of Tomorrow
Tired
Keeping the Shame
Harsh Realities
No Way Out
Absolution
Burn
Raven
Knowing the Truth
Apocalypse
Crisis
The Funeral
Fading to Grey
Requiem (for a Dime)
The Enemy Within
Unstable
Judgement
_________________________________________
Perfect Tragedy
Welcome to my disgrace
fragments of the past
Hold a candle to my face,
we’ll just see how long it lasts
The open fields of grey,
an ocean made of time
The fields have become stained by my sin and my crime
With my mind beginning to fade
It’s all the same (All the same)
With my mind playing like a movie
A frightening story (Frightening story)
[Chorus]
A simple boy, a dying old man
Just at first please understand
That now the ages have caught up to me
And I have reached my tragedy
Is in my, in my pain
And my waking hour doesn’t look good to me
Just let it, let things be
With the season beginning to expire
It’s time to, time to retire
To the little room in my mind
That’s just too hard to find
My tragedy
My Perfect Tragedy
Welcome to my disgrace – fragments of the past
Hold a candle to my face, we’ll just see how long it lasts
The open fields of grey, an ocean made of time
The fields have become stained by my sin and my crime
_________________________________________
Go back to Absolution
These Days
As the clouds roll in the air grows colder
And as the blame will come, I’m growing older
[Pre-Chorus]
Even though you tried so hard to stay around
Even though you tried so hard to bring me down
[Chorus]
I know things have somehow changed
I know I am not the same
I know I am not the one
I know I am surely done
These days seem so hopeless in their own way
These days seem so sorry, I hate to see it end this way
[Pre-Chorus; Chorus]
As the clouds roll in the air grows colder
And as the blame will come, I’m growing older and older
These days seem so hopeless in their own way
These days seem so sorry, I hate to see it end this way
[Pre-Chorus; Chorus x2]
_________________________________________
Go back to Absolution
Graveyard Hill
I know I made mistakes, but do I deserve this in it’s place?
This hurt that’s given to me, it may end up the thing that’s driving me
[Chorus]
My mind feels it’s already dead
But don’t mind the words that I’ve said
They’re only verbal cries for your help
But it’s okay, they’re the cards that I’ve been dealt
Tricked by a life that’s mine to make me think that everything’s alright
But I know where I went wrong;
it was the day that I had asked to be born
Standing on a graveyard hill you can feel the winter wind’s chill
May god strike me down for the thoughts that hold me to the ground
[Chorus x2]
_________________________________________
Go back to Absolution
World of Tomorrow
If I knew just what to say
I would say it to your face
I’m truly sorry taking for granted
How you told me like a prophet.
[Chorus]
I understand your hate, it is not your fault
That you don’t like what I say – an open wound with salt
I understand your hate, it is in your sorrow
How can I help you out of this world of tomorrow?
Every time I cross the line
I just want to take back time
To find out where I went wrong
To correct before I’m gone
I didn’t plan to be this way
Don’t you hear the words I say?
Staring deep into the mirror
Realize that you’re here
[Chorus]
Here is my final plea
Will you please forgive me?
For the times I let you down
When I didn’t help you out
I didn’t plan to be this way
Don’t you hear the words I say?
Take your time and see in the mirror
That we are still here
[Chorus]
_________________________________________
Go back to Absolution
Tired
Is my life meaningful, or am I just another soulless crime?
Did I do something wrong?
Why don’t you point it out this time?
I can’t seem to focus on things that matter the most to me
It’s become just too hard to even raise my sorrowed eyes
To give you attention or even respond to your cries
I’m not the special one you seek to change your life somehow
It’s okay, I understand, it’s time to leave me behind now
[Chorus]
Don’t worry about me
I’ll be just fine
No thank you, nevermind
I’ve run out of time
I don’t need your pity, I’ll take it on myself
The pain is mine to bear, I’ll do it by myself
I know you’re not sorry, don’t give that shit to me
I know you’ll go away, so leave me in my pain
Maybe one day you’ll try to understand
Living angry, done the very best that I can
My soul, my goals – hanging by a wire
Waiting, hurting, you drag me down and make me tired
It’s become just too hard to even raise my sorrowed eyes
To give you attention or even respond to your cries
I’m not the special one you seek to change your life somehow
It’s okay, I understand, it’s time to leave me behind now
Maybe one day you’ll try to understand
Living angry, done the very best that I can
My soul, my goals – hanging by a wire
Waiting, hurting, you drag me down and make me tired
_________________________________________
Go back to Absolution
Keeping The Shame
Dissident family portraits scratched into the wall
A wall made of plastic; turned to porcelain that will fall
Angered psychiatrists tell me who I am
Like therapy ever helped me, and I don’t give a damn
[Chorus]
None of this is my fault, that’s what they all say
You think this will help me take away the pain
None of you were even there, I’ll take all the blame
I should have done something, I will keep the shame
To pinpoint the abuse we must understand
All the pain that you endured; what you felt firsthand
To pinpoint your abuse we must understand
All the pain that I endured, what I felt firsthand (firsthand)
You wanna feel my fucking pain?
Find the one that you love most
And have them stab you fifty times
Use the chain to help you choke
Have them strap you to a train
drive into a red brick wall
Steal your dad’s rusted wrench,
have your loved one beat you ‘til you’re gone
[Chorus]
Have you ever felt anything but spite?
Like your life is meaningful, tell me what its like
Have you ever felt endless peace of mind?
Or do you feel like you are dead?
It happens all the time…
_________________________________________
Go back to Absolution
Harsh Realities
A sad old man lays in his bed
Thinking that he should be dead
The reading of his will is set for tomorrow
Now that he has gone in a coma
The ‘No Smoking’ room is silenced
So he leaves that ‘No Smoking’ room on fire
Walking in an alley while I crack my fist
In an age where people don’t take that risk
In a moment a fight breaks out
One man wins and the other goes down
A sadist and a martyr stand together in pain
Shown the harsh realities by the black cold rain
Arguing and jesting about our lives
Come to the conclusion – Well, we’re all going to die
And the active future working leaves no stone unturned
And the age old question is finally answered
Is life just a question, or is it all planned out?
God help me figure it out
_________________________________________
Go back to Absolution
No Way Out
These thoughts that I think
Wrong or right, are they the same?
My panic died with my hate
Now I think I’m going insane
No way out [x3]
Some are born, and some men die
Beneath one huge infinite sky
As iron will turn to rust
All proud men will turn to dust.
No way out [x3]
Don’t lose feeling or you’ll go numb
Stop your crying, just unload the gun
Don’t say stare into the sun
Don’t give up or you’re already done
I am going out of my mind
Suddenly end up crossing the line
Now I think I’m going insane
It’s all gonna happen again
Don’t say stare into the sun
Don’t give up or you’re already done
[x2]
_________________________________________
Burn
Beaten Down the walls that I’ve founded
a dedicated moment of hate
Conflict Driven all I’ve given
Bound By the god of my Fate
One man Struggle, made to suffer
Walking on the backs of the dead
One Might say, I will bury the way
With the Doubt and the pain in my Head
Time doesn’t heal, Time takes its toll
Why do I, why do I, Keep hatred inside me
I hold on, I hold on to my own sanity
Why should I, Why should I give pity with none returned
I wont Die, I wont Die until I watch you burn
Killing noise, A shell to the floor
waiting for the next demented
Pushing Back, I cant hold back
filling all you know with led
Beaten Down the walls that I’ve founded
a dedicated moment of hate
Conflict Driven all I’ve given
Bound By the god of my Fate
Time doesn’t heal, Time takes its toll
Why do I, why do I, Keep hatred inside me
I hold on, I hold on to my own sanity
Why should I, Why should I give pity with none I’ve seen
I wont Die, I wont Die until I watch you bleed
Watch you Bleed, Watch you…. Bleed
Why do I, why do I, Keep hatred inside me
I hold on, I hold on to my own sanity
Why should I, Why should I give pity with none returned
I wont Die, I CANT Die until I watch you burn
_________________________________________
Raven
The Question I lay down is
In your Loyalty,
And whether My own instinct
I should Follow
Due to Misguided faith,
I will live to take the pain,
I will Never Give you what you
ask of me again,
You Have taken all for granted,
Now you have an Empty hand
My mind is spent
My hope is gone
And my bodies broken
My Time has left
My spirits dead
My last breath stolen
And now that I am gone
I don’t exist
I stare in my own empty eyes
and hear my faded cries
Black Cloud cover me
Thank you for relief
Black Raven Hide me
From the world outside
Black throne cradle me
I need to be deceived
Black raven lead me
Into Emptiness,
Rip me open, Broken
Hard to Handle, Candid
The need to face the loosing
All I know is I would rather DIE!
Black throne cradle me
I need to be deceived
Black raven lead me
Into The Abyss
_________________________________________
Knowing the Truth
Every Little piece information there has been,
gathered by society,
Apparently knows me better than me,
conflict holds my loyalty,
Every fight we started is just another thread
pulled from the rope that holds me back,
Damaged from the conversation,
building hostile tension inside,
Every word I say in anger,
I have said, in my mind.
Everything you know, about me,
is not always true
No, I will never give in
Know I will never die
Compromise is a sign of weakness,
Everybody deals the same,
Nothing is ever good enough,
always looking for a bigger better way
Everything you know, about me, is not always true
No, I will not take fault,
Know, an Eye for an Eye
No, I will never give in
Know I will never die
No, I will not take fault,
Know, an Eye for an Eye
_________________________________________
Apocalypse
Cataclysmic Death, Brings on a new chapter of my life,
Seeking truth where only Lies remain while
In my back resides your knife,
Feeling suicidal, my conscience leading every step,
I can’t see where strings are taking me but in my mind I wait for death,
I…Can’t …Stop
Deaf Child can you not hear me,
Live a warning, of the end
Blind Child, Live in illusion,
And never see the dark you’re living in,
Reading like a story, Telling Book of Revelations,
Stealing fears from my insanity, Reality where Burns a nation,
Brutal Constitution, Feeding masses the same shit,
About ones brave sadistic life we share,
Add liberty is such a Bitch,
Redefine the means, can not justify the cause
Forcing self-destruction can not stop us all…
Symbolic resolution, shows us truth behind decay,
As it hides within the shadows waiting, Kill the night,
Starve the day,
Left in Violent conflict, without any mercy in my eyes,
A staggered Race, a burning world,
I will hate until I die.
Chorus 2x
I Cant Stop……!
_________________________________________
Crisis
When I was Caught in a Lie,
I Felt Disgrace
When I Finally opened my Eyes,
I Felt embrace
When Hell Fell From the Sky,
I Thought Mistakes
Mistakes for which I thought Someone would cry
That Just Wasn’t the Case
Has Christ Ever Had a Crisis
Has Time Ever felt a Pain
Has Evil Ever Had A Conscience
Has a Demon ever lost his Dark Wings
Has Death Ever had a Life
Has Man ever Had a Soul
Has a lost child ever had direction
Got one Down, and a Few More , Let Go!
Wasted Time, Wasted Lies, on me
Wasted Time, Wasted Lives, on me
_________________________________________
The Funeral
How could I explain
How it felt to be alive
And everything I do
Is never good enough for any of you
I give up
A cold, Mist on the windows
on the way to a congress on the grassy knoll
Empty chairs
unfold on water and rust
Laying wait to family
in there Sunday best
This poor mans wife
explains what made her cheat
and listening, it makes no sense to me
This so called family
should be sad to see him leave
but instead, all they want, is self-pity
Surrounded by people
who never knew you
take you for granted
taking advantage, of a troubled mind
they think your blind, to there wasted attempts
of stealing your last breathe
Someday, I pray, this world would finally change,
A child, a man, wouldn’t face a war again,
The calm, the peace, would treat me like a friend
The love, and trust, would always be there,
But in this real life, lost we remain,
Plagued with death and sickness, and never sleep again,
With bullet wounds on 10 year olds, I just pray we die another day
Surrounded by people
who never knew you
take you for granted
taking advantage, of a troubled mind
they think your blind, to there wasted attempts
of stealing your last breathe
_________________________________________
Fading To Grey
If there was a way
To emphasize the pain
Ripping out the lonely heart
Killer on the rampage
Chaos in the making
Dagger comprehending
Endless stream of active cruelty
Cutting deep inside me
Madness that remains
The misery to me
Shaded tree, burning me
Tainted mentally
*Let The Faceless Stand Alone
Amongst the Remnance of the living,
Civilization Paid to Say,
To Leave The Gifted To The Burning,
Stains of Blood amongst the Ruins
Battle Scares for All To See,
But No One Cares to Face The Truth
Alone Has Left Me/Us Fading,
Fading to Grey(Loop Line)
Living degredation
Shedding in corrosion
Standing in my hollowed opus
Facing no solution
Hurting to the mind
Praying to be blind
To the wound that opened up
Bleeding till I Died
WAKE UP! 4 x
*
Facing by myself
The Mirror on the self
Reflection of a faceless victim
Screaming for some help
The Painful Realization
in the purification
My calls will always go unanswered
By the shattered Reagan
Homage to the need
Pushing now to bleed
Fuck you and your wretched chasm
Made of cut down bodies
Chorus *
Fading to Grey(Loop Line)
_________________________________________
Requiem (for a Dime)
Legacy can not be given fake,
Driving force behind a pre ordained fate,
Heresy can never hide the truth,
Retribution in all that you do,
Remember, Hammer to the head,
Voicing statements that are hard to understand
I know you; can hear me when I speak to you,
No goodbye; can feel you standing by my side
Your demise, the one who made a stand,
Living your life to your own Damage plan,
Realize, even from a cell,
You will always be a cowboy from hell
I know you; can hear me when I speak to you,
We hold on, to the memories that are never gone.
I know you; can hear me when I speak to you,
No goodbye; can feel you standing by my side
I know you; can hear me when I speak to you,
We hold on, to the memories that are never gone.
_________________________________________
Return to Redeemer
The Enemy Within
Chaos Within, Can Never Be Killed,
It will only subside,
Ignorance, left unchecked,
Can keep the hate alive,
For the Reject, I’m a Reject
Jesus Christ is holding a gun;
it’s just another sign of the times,
A personal war, every 1 in 4,
is taking all the pain on the right side
Restitution, of aggression,
is not just a fucked up way to be,
Holding in, while hiding the grin,
will pull the trigger of Insanity….Insanity….Insanity
Show me, how worthy you can be,
Releasing, depleting your enemy,
Willing, Killing hate inside,
I’m just another one who crossed the line,
Fight fire with Fire until I die
Until I…
Chorus..
Hiding in the shadows, holding truth inside
Waiting for an outburst to cause, havoc on the outside
Hiding in the shadows, holding deep inside,
Waiting for an outburst to cause, havoc on the outside
_________________________________________
Return to Redeemer
Unstable
Final chapter, wasted me
Try to kill the voices in me
Pissed off people show me true
All the rage that’s held in you,
I’m fucked up and so are you
I wanna grow up just like you
What you are is what you think
I am nothing, You are weak, Com’on
WHEN THE FINAL STRAW IS DRAWN
I’M NOT ACCOUNTABLE
FOR YOUR FUCKED UP, MANGLED BODY
I AM UNSTABLE
Just Hold on,
Hold on to the Past,
The past Causes Pain,
CAUSES NEEDLESS PAIN
Let me show you my true face
Made in hatred and disgrace
It’s the last thing that you’ll see
Right before I make you bleed,
I can’t hold back anymore
Now it’s time to face the war
I have heard a shameful moan
I will break your fucking bones, com’on
WHEN THE FINAL STRAW IS DRAWN
I’M NOT ACCOUNTABLE
FOR YOUR FUCKED UP, MANGLED BODY
I AM UNSTABLE
Just Hold on,
Hold on to the Past,
The past Causes Pain,
CAUSES NEEDLESS PAIN
Final chapter, wasted me
Try to kill the voices in me
Pissed off people show me true
All the rage that’s held in you,
_________________________________________
Return to Redeemer
Judgement
Can one give into close demand,
taking every bullet with stride
Can one live in a cut throat world,
living off the words of there lies,
Can one take every physical wound,
if mind over matter prevails,
Can one wait as another one fails,
as he’s watching, yet another one fail,
Raising my eyes to the damned darkened skies,
Holding my breathe til my last,
Keeping in mind all the wrongs I have done,
Judging myself for my past.
Battle driven words of wisdom,
Yelled at the front of the line,
Tainted mental state of fate,
rising to the fall of mankind,
Every word that’s said under breathe,
are the words of a coward in debt,
Every moment, lived as a victim,
is a moment meant for death,
Raising my eyes to the damned darkened skies,
Holding my breathe til my last,
Keeping in mind all the wrongs I have done,
Judging myself for my past.
Why don’t you look in the mirror,
Tell me now what you can see,
I don’t give a damn about you,
So why are you staring at me,
The day will eventually come,
Finally reaching your end,
No one will be there to see,
The shitty, fucking pathetic excuse of a human you turned out to be!
Why don’t you look in the mirror,
Tell me now what you can see,
I don’t give a fuck about you,
So why give a shit about me,
The day will eventually come,
Finally reaching your end,
No one will be there to see,
The shitty, fucking pathetic excuse of a human you turned out to be!